Things have changed....

So this is a very hard update for me. I have had some difficult times these last few months, almost a year really and have gained back 40 lbs. I was diagnosed with bipolar and started on some fairly heavy meds. Which of coursed ended up causing weight gain as a side effect. So now matter how well i ate, i still was gaining. So then I went crazy, got depressed and started binging like crazy, eating all the foods i havnt wanted to touch in a long time. i even stopped going to Weight watchers 2 months ago becuase i was so ashamed.

Now i have joined OA (i'll post more about that in another update), i have switched medications, i went back to weight watcher this past week, and i feel like i am soo on track again. I will lose this weight. my goal is 100 lbs in 1 year. But I'm also not trying to put too much pressure on myself, otherwise i do get depressed. but like having a goal to help keep me focused.

I also promise to write more updates in this blog, i think it'll help.

Slow but steady

So I have been horrible at keeping up with this blog! I know. I have my good days and my bad...My weight has defeintly slowed right down, however i am still losing at least.
Currently I have lost a total of 89 lbs! yay! I really hope to be at 100 lb loss by thanksgigiving, but the last 2 weeks I have plauted (sp?) but I got some tips and am working on that.

My exercising has been crap latly, btu i am trying to speed walk daily on the treadmil and eventually I would like to start running. We shall see how that goes. 15 mins on it and I am dead lol.

On a positive note i can now squeeze into a size 18!! (was a 30 14 months ago)

Reached another mini goal!!

So I reached my mini goal of 75 lbs lost a couple weeks back!! YAY me!! I am actually at 79lbs lsot in total right now..almost half way to my goal!!

So I've been doing really well..the last 3 weeks in a row I lost 2.6 lbs..which is weird but hey I'll take it! this week i havnt done as well so we'll see. However I know I am been horrible about keeping up on my posts in here...I'll try though, its jsut hard I'm nto sure if i am tlaking to myself or if anyone actually reads this lol.

My WW meetings are now on saturday...I really like the leader there too, and its a more younger crowd. Plus i dont work then lol.

Food Tracking 03/14-03/20

To help with my tracking..which i have become very bad at latly. I am going to do it online. so feel free to yell at me if you dont see me doing it every day.

So heres week one.

Saturday
breakfast egg creations with low fat cheese on an englishmuffin 4 pts
Lunch
Lean meal-shrimp and pasta 6 pts
rice krispie square 2 pts
Snack rice krispie square 2pts
Super
Burschetta chicken bake, and green beans 9 pts
Snack
100 cal popcorn, with seasoning, and a can of pepsi 5 pts

total pts 28/30

Sunday
Breakfast
Egg creations on a ww wrap, with 5 mls of salsa 2pts
Lunch
Lean meal-Chicken terryaki 5pts
Snack
Cheese and crackers 4pts
Super
RCSS fried chicken, wedges and cowslaw 20 pts (guessed)

total pts 31/30 (flex down to 34 pts for the week)

Current update!

So I did gain 6.8 lbs at christmas time (damn my baking abilites), the first week back at ww I lost 1 lb of it, and then this last week i lost 3.4 lbs. So less then 3 lbs to go and i'll be back to where I was. I am hoping to lsoe it all by next week, however with lilia in the hospital and not being able to swim i will just do my best and cross my fingers that I dont gain.

BTW not sure if my ticker is right, I guessed. I'll have to look up the exact info and then correct it if i am wrong. (its in the car and DAMN its cold outside)

Btw isnt my blog pretty now? :D

if you have any ideas of a good song for it let me know!!

Pretty sure I gained

well i have been falling off the wagon latly.What with lilia and brants birthday/party, and all the christmas parties and baking..man its HARD. I have eaten way too much crap..and i am pretty sure I have gained a couple pounds. Plus last week i couldnt go to my WW meeting as the kdis had an appoinment (sometimes more) every day!! which also meant eating quick meals..

This week its Christmas so i dont expect it to get much better..but i am trying to control myself. I am still swimming and drinking my water. Is witched my swim program to a harder one to try and help and I will be adding soem exercising with weights at home. So hopefully I can control the damage a bit and not feel too bad about myself.

it was actually making me feel pretty depressed..but I think I am feeling better about it. I will do better!! And I will be 75lbs lost by my birthday!

SO if you see me eating fudge..feel free to take it!!

remember to eat!!!

So the last 2 weeks my weight loss was .6 and .8, I was very frustrated. I had been swimming a bit more, i didnt eat my flex points, and I was eating a few less points each day then i was suppose to.

This week I ate my flex points (mmm carrott cake at my niece's baptism) i ate 2 extra points each day, and i went swimming 3 times (instead of my usual 5) and I lost 4.2 lbs!!!

Apprently if you dont eat enough your body starts to slow down in case your starting to starve yourself. So there is a fine line..you dont want to eat too much, and yet you cant eat too less either.

Anyways my total weight loss now is 65.6 lbs!! Woo hoo!